Hi David,
I found your website online a couple of weeks ago and have been
fascinated. I have been a very serious student of the course for 2
1/2 years now and am at a bit of an impasse. I do not know any
other course students at all, because I quit my job and began
traveling extensively overseas and across the USA specifically to
concentrate on the Course. The results have been slow, but steady
and amazing.
About 6 weeks ago, I was told by the Holy Spirit to "walk the
earth". I knew that this would be/will be inevitable and mandatory,
just a Jesus did, because it is the only way to clean out all fear
and to enable complete concentration. I was just incredibly
surprised at how soon I was told to do this. I thought it would be
3 more years at least. Quite frankly, it frightened me a bit
because I do not feel ready. I asked "what will I do, where will I
go?" and was told "move in the body of Christ" which I take to mean
go from church to church, all denominations, initially. I should
also mention that I "found" a book on the Peace Pilgrim about 3
weeks before this happened. I had heard the name years before, but
had forgotten about her and never did know what she did.
All this prompted me to search more intensely on the web for ACIM
web sites desperately looking for anyone who had done this. That is
when I found your site and was amazed. I have listened to many of
the online meetings, and was impressed by what a fabulous speaker
you are, able to share without proselytizing. I need to learn how
to speak about the course, but have not yet had a chance to do so.
I also feel that I am still on the "learning circuit" rather than
the speaking circuit because I have not yet reached inner peace and
have much to learn.
So why am I writing? I really want to talk to other ACIM people who
understand the more advanced stuff that I hope to learn. Also, I
would like to know what your experiences were, what you did, and
what happened. I would really like to find another ACIM person who
also has been "called" as I have to walk the earth and walk
together. Do you know anyone like me that I could contact? I
believe Jesus sent his apostles out 2 by 2, but I'm not sure. I
feel that I would be much less fearful if I had another person with
me who had the same goals. I also felt that I was asked to carry
nothing but the Course book with me. Yikes! No sleeping bag, no
nothing!
I went up into the mountains for a few days to fast and pray, and
was inspired to think about an organization of ACIM people who walk
the earth as pilgrims 2 by 2, being directly trained by the Holy
Spirit for at least a year at a time. Some people would want to
continue doing it and could bring out new people who, like me, would
love to learn like this but do not yet have the faith to do it alone
(yes, I know, we are never alone). It would be neat if Americans
began to become familiar with pilgrims walking the countryside.
What a demonstration in faith! I believe part of the Peace
Pilgrim's earthly mission was to show that this could be done, and
complete reliance on God is possible.
I am not sure what to do. I semi-decided to move down to Los
Angeles and get a job and join a course study group. I was also
planning on getting involved in 2 or 3 churches to greatly increase
my learning and communication skills with this material. I have
this driving desire to talk to pastors and ministers and find out
what they know about God, what they have learned and to say "teach
me". I am very interested in the Church of Christ Scientist which
supposedly has people who do bone fide faith healing. I want
exposure to this. I am ready to be a sponge. But as I start
looking for a job in the WORLD, I am not crazy about it. I am
already spending too much time paying attention to the resume,
what "profession" I should be in, etc. I am spending much less time
concentrating on the course. That's it. Worldly stuff makes me
break my concentration and I am becoming re-absorbed back into all
this stuff I k now is absolutely meaningless (i.e. "rules" of how to
dress for an interview, good grief!). The job search process is
also making me realize how deeply frightened this world is and how
it constantly is searching for guilt. For example, most employers
want background checks, credit checks, DMV checks. It is really
unbelievable. How I long work for God and be completely out of
the "money" system!
Hopefully this e-mail isn't overwhelming for you. I haven't had the
chance to talk to anyone who could understand what the Course does
to you. I literally feel like I'm standing with one foot in two
worlds, and I will have to choose soon. Thank you for taking the
time to read this! Drop me an e-mail with your thoughts when you
get a chance. Thank you very much, and what a marvelous website
you have! It has been so helpful to me!
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Beloved One,
Thanks for pouring your heart out with such openess. You are being
Called, and everyone is Called. In this world the ego's voice and
goals can seem to crowd out the Holy Spirit's Voice, and though
everyone is Called few seem to listen and Answer. To Answer is
simply to be happy, for God's Will is for Perfect Happiness. The
time-space cosmos was made as a mechanism to avoid the Perfect
Happiness of the Kingdom of Heaven. Yet in Answering the Call there
can only be happiness. It is my joy to meet with you while I am in
California and explore everything entailed in Answering the Call.
Trust in the Holy Spirit is the key to Awakening. To the extent you
are able to trust HS you will increasingly be aware that you have no
problems. The ego was a limit placed on unlimited comunication, and
as you are willing to communicate you will attract communication to
you. There are two friends, Deb and Paul, who are embarking on a
similar Calling in September - traveling with a camper to Wisconsin
and then around to meet ACIM students wherever invited. A simple
life of listening and trusting and following will transfer the
lesson of forgiveness to encompass your entire perception. Healed
perception is integrated perception, and in this not one person,
place, or thing is held apart from the blessing the miracle brings.
Trust would settle every problem now, and a simple life of trust
will yield immediate results in terms of peace of mind.
Salvation is not for sale. Enlightenment is not for sale. Those
who would truly Give offer freely what has been received from the
Holy Spirit. Rituals fall away as the mind yields to Divine
Spontaneity. The desire to "get" dissolves in True Giving. Travel
can be a symbol for the willingness to share and the willingness to
Flow and accept and to not expect. What shows up is perfect in that
it is orchestrated and provided by One Who Knows your best interests
in every seeming situation. Everything is for one's best interests
in healed perception. To surrender is to yield the personal
perspective in favor of the Flow.
If you would trust do not attempt to activate the past, organize the
present, or plan the future. If there are plans to be made you will
be told of them by our Inner Wisdom and they will be for the benefit
of everyone. The miracle meets every perceived need in one gentle
perspective, and leaves a blessing for all.
I am with you all the way, and we cannot fail in a Plan destined to
Awaken all in Oneness and Love. Take my hand and we shall skip
along singing and rejoicing as we go. For we but seem to travel in
happy dreams of forgiveness, all the while safe at Home in God.
Leave the structure of the ego's world with Me and enter into
another world of happy, peaceful perception. There is no loss in
this exchange, for dreams of pain are over now. Leave the world of
giving to get, of paying to partake, of repeating past mistakes.
Come join me in the real world, a world inspired by joy that knows
not of a fear of consequences. You have a Great Gift to share, for
you are Divine Love Itself. Nothing can hold you back from your
appointed function, for God goes with Us All Now.
One Moment of Trust can change the entire outlook. Come and See.
Blessings of Love Forever and Ever,
David
PS: The second web site listed below will help take you into the
furthest depths of the mind.
http://awakening-mind.org
http://miracleshome.org
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Hi David,
I wanted to get some clarity about a deep issue in mind. The passage
in chapter 12 crucifixion by guilt 2nd last paragraph reads: "The
Atonement has always been interpreted as the release from guilt, and
this is correct if it is understood. Yet even when I have interpreted
it for you you have rejected it and have not accepted it for
yourself. You have recognized the futility of the ego and its
offerings but though you do not want the ego you do not look upon the
alternative with gladness. You are afaid of redemption and believe it
will kill you.( what does this mean?) (if this is true no wonder I am
resisting salvation) (how do I overcome this?) Make no mistake about
the depth of your fear. For you believe that in the presence of
truth, you will turn on yourself and destroy yourself." (help can you
explain this)
I feel right now tremendous guilt and pain in my mind and it is
manifesting physically in that I feel sick nearly all the time and
have constant severe headaches. I feel like my mind in contracting in
terror and I try to relax and use the lessons (its not true its just
a dream) but it doesnt penetrate the depths where it changes and I
Know its not true. I keep my life as simple as possible and I hardly
have any energy -I have to lay down all the time. And it seems to be
getting worse. The paragraph which touched me the most in the whole
text is in the fear of redemption paragraph 7. It touched a nerve and
feels like this is the place I am at in my mind. It reads:
"The reason you must look upon your delusions and not keep them
hidden is that they do not rest on their own foundation. In
concealment they appear to do so, and thus they seem to be self
sustained. This is the fundamental illusion on which they rest. For
beneath them and concealed as long as they are hidden is the loving
mind that thought it made them in anger. And the pain in this mind is
so apparent when it is uncovered that its need of healing cannot be
denied. Not all the tricks and games you offer it can heal it for
here is the real crucifixion of gods son..."( Can you explain this)
I also get confused on how not to identify with the ego when Jesus is
talking in the course directly to the ego (eg., he says 'you
believe'....how am I meant to not identify with the ego and expose it
at the same time, seems so confusing. Help I feel so embarassed
exposing this because part of my mind knows its a lie yet the other
part doesn't. Does that make sense? Thanks for your help.
__________________________________________________________
Beloved One,
Thanks for pouring out your heart with the willingness to release the
block. Together we will look at the questions you have raised, one
by one, about the passage in ACIM that you read.
1. "You are afaid of redemption and believe it will kill you."
To come to this world is a witness to the belief that Heaven has been
replaced by error, or that Truth has been replaced by illusions. To
the mind that has forgotten its True Identity (Light), the Light is
indeed very fearful. The self-concept was made as a replacement for
Love, and as the self-concept is exposed and released the ego judges
redemption as its own death. Thus the Holy Spirit, which the ego
does not know but suspects, is believed to be the killer and the ego,
which is the belief in death, is believed to be real and having
existence. The Holy Spirit is actually the reminder of and the
memory of Spirit, Which is Life. Yet Life, and Life's Representative
are threats to the ego.
2. How do I overcome this?
All this is overcome by miracles, the shifts in perspective that show
the false as false, and the cosmos as unreal. So many miracles are
needed for the sleeping mind to be convinced that the cosmos is only
a dream of images that have no meaning.
3. "...make no mistake about the depth of your fear. For you believe
that in the presence of truth, you will turn on yourself and destroy
yourself."(help can you explain this)
The ego is the belief in Self-destruction, and so this is a version
of Psychic suicide in the Face of Truth.
4. "The reason you must look upon your delusions and not keep them
hidden is that they do not rest on their own foundation. In
concealment they appear to do so, and thus they seem to be self
sustained. This is the fundamental illusion on which they rest. For
beneath them and concealed as long as they are hidden is the loving
mind that thought it made them in anger. And the pain in this mind is
so apparent when it is uncovered that its need of healing cannot be
denied. Not all the tricks and games you offer it can heal it for
here is the real crucifixion of gods son."( Can you explain this)
Beyond all the games and tricks on the surface is hidden pain, and
healing cannot occur until this pain is acknowledged instead of
denied. Yet once acknowledged the pain can quickly be released.
Illusions which are not protected from the Light will disappear,
simply because they have no foundation.
5. I also get confused on how not to identify with the ego when
Jesus is talking in the course directly to the ego (eg. he says you
believe....how am I meant to not identify with the ego and expose it
at the same time, seems so confusing. Help I feel so embarassed
exposing this because part of my mind knows its a lie yet the other
part doesn't - does that make sense?
The exposure of the ego seems difficult only because the ego is
judging itself and the Awakening. Yet judgment has no basis, and an
error condemning itself is insane but not beyond Correction. ACIM
has many metaphors (as if the separation had happened) yet these must
be released as well when they no longer serve. Just be willing to
follow the instructions of the Workbook, and let the rest of the
healing process unfold step by seeming step.
I am joined with you in the healing. Thanks for your willingness to
look upon the insanity of the ego belief system. It cannot ever be
understood, only forgiven or released.
Blessings of Love,
David
I wanted to get some clarity about a deep issue in mind. The passage
in chapter 12 crucifixion by guilt 2nd last paragraph reads: "The
Atonement has always been interpreted as the release from guilt, and
this is correct if it is understood. Yet even when I have interpreted
it for you you have rejected it and have not accepted it for
yourself. You have recognized the futility of the ego and its
offerings but though you do not want the ego you do not look upon the
alternative with gladness. You are afaid of redemption and believe it
will kill you.( what does this mean?) (if this is true no wonder I am
resisting salvation) (how do I overcome this?) Make no mistake about
the depth of your fear. For you believe that in the presence of
truth, you will turn on yourself and destroy yourself." (help can you
explain this)
I feel right now tremendous guilt and pain in my mind and it is
manifesting physically in that I feel sick nearly all the time and
have constant severe headaches. I feel like my mind in contracting in
terror and I try to relax and use the lessons (its not true its just
a dream) but it doesnt penetrate the depths where it changes and I
Know its not true. I keep my life as simple as possible and I hardly
have any energy -I have to lay down all the time. And it seems to be
getting worse. The paragraph which touched me the most in the whole
text is in the fear of redemption paragraph 7. It touched a nerve and
feels like this is the place I am at in my mind. It reads:
"The reason you must look upon your delusions and not keep them
hidden is that they do not rest on their own foundation. In
concealment they appear to do so, and thus they seem to be self
sustained. This is the fundamental illusion on which they rest. For
beneath them and concealed as long as they are hidden is the loving
mind that thought it made them in anger. And the pain in this mind is
so apparent when it is uncovered that its need of healing cannot be
denied. Not all the tricks and games you offer it can heal it for
here is the real crucifixion of gods son..."( Can you explain this)
I also get confused on how not to identify with the ego when Jesus is
talking in the course directly to the ego (eg., he says 'you
believe'....how am I meant to not identify with the ego and expose it
at the same time, seems so confusing. Help I feel so embarassed
exposing this because part of my mind knows its a lie yet the other
part doesn't. Does that make sense? Thanks for your help.
__________________________________________________________
Beloved One,
Thanks for pouring out your heart with the willingness to release the
block. Together we will look at the questions you have raised, one
by one, about the passage in ACIM that you read.
1. "You are afaid of redemption and believe it will kill you."
To come to this world is a witness to the belief that Heaven has been
replaced by error, or that Truth has been replaced by illusions. To
the mind that has forgotten its True Identity (Light), the Light is
indeed very fearful. The self-concept was made as a replacement for
Love, and as the self-concept is exposed and released the ego judges
redemption as its own death. Thus the Holy Spirit, which the ego
does not know but suspects, is believed to be the killer and the ego,
which is the belief in death, is believed to be real and having
existence. The Holy Spirit is actually the reminder of and the
memory of Spirit, Which is Life. Yet Life, and Life's Representative
are threats to the ego.
2. How do I overcome this?
All this is overcome by miracles, the shifts in perspective that show
the false as false, and the cosmos as unreal. So many miracles are
needed for the sleeping mind to be convinced that the cosmos is only
a dream of images that have no meaning.
3. "...make no mistake about the depth of your fear. For you believe
that in the presence of truth, you will turn on yourself and destroy
yourself."(help can you explain this)
The ego is the belief in Self-destruction, and so this is a version
of Psychic suicide in the Face of Truth.
4. "The reason you must look upon your delusions and not keep them
hidden is that they do not rest on their own foundation. In
concealment they appear to do so, and thus they seem to be self
sustained. This is the fundamental illusion on which they rest. For
beneath them and concealed as long as they are hidden is the loving
mind that thought it made them in anger. And the pain in this mind is
so apparent when it is uncovered that its need of healing cannot be
denied. Not all the tricks and games you offer it can heal it for
here is the real crucifixion of gods son."( Can you explain this)
Beyond all the games and tricks on the surface is hidden pain, and
healing cannot occur until this pain is acknowledged instead of
denied. Yet once acknowledged the pain can quickly be released.
Illusions which are not protected from the Light will disappear,
simply because they have no foundation.
5. I also get confused on how not to identify with the ego when
Jesus is talking in the course directly to the ego (eg. he says you
believe....how am I meant to not identify with the ego and expose it
at the same time, seems so confusing. Help I feel so embarassed
exposing this because part of my mind knows its a lie yet the other
part doesn't - does that make sense?
The exposure of the ego seems difficult only because the ego is
judging itself and the Awakening. Yet judgment has no basis, and an
error condemning itself is insane but not beyond Correction. ACIM
has many metaphors (as if the separation had happened) yet these must
be released as well when they no longer serve. Just be willing to
follow the instructions of the Workbook, and let the rest of the
healing process unfold step by seeming step.
I am joined with you in the healing. Thanks for your willingness to
look upon the insanity of the ego belief system. It cannot ever be
understood, only forgiven or released.
Blessings of Love,
David
Monday, March 8, 2010
6 week devotional retreat in Mallorca, Spain
Beloved One,
Blessings of Joy. Last year's 4 week devotional retreat in Mallorca, Spain was
so inspiring and transformational, that we have decided to hold a 6 week
devotional retreat this Fall (mid-October through November) once again on the
island of Mallorca, Spain.
Christian Christensen jcc_australia@hotmail.com is on the Mallorca 2010 team
along with Lynne Sears lynnesears@hotmail.com and Claire Waling
cwaling@gmail.com and this year they are organizing the event in collaboration
with the Foundation for the Awakening Mind.
Christian sent me the following information:
"We are delighted to invite you to join us for the 2010 "A Course In Miracles"
event of the year. After the amazing 2009 event the Holy Spirit has provide us
with an other opportunity to go deeper and more intensely inward then ever
before. Over 30 people from all over the world participated in last year's
event, and words cannot describe the peace and joy that we all experienced over
the 4 weeks that the retreat lasted in 2009. The feedback from nearly all
participants was that 30 days was too short and therefore the 2010 event will
give you the opportunity to stay for up to 6 weeks in a nurturing and loving
environment. The event will be based on the teachings of David Hoffmeister and
"A Course in Miracles" and in the live environment the depth of the teachings
can be experienced to it's maximal potential.
We feel that this event will be booked full fairly quickly, so to give everybody
the same possibilities booking can only be done on one website link, which
Christian and his webmaster Shaun have set up, and very soon this link will be
posted by our webmaster on the Foundation for the Awakening Mind's Mallorca 2010
website at:
http://global-miracles.net/mallorca/index.htm
This initial launch of the event includes a Mallorca 2010 devotional retreat
announcement website on Awakening Mind website (linked to from the Coming Events
page on the main website), a mailing announcement to our Living Miracles mailing
list, a mailing announcement by Christian to those who have contacted him and
given him their email address, and a mailing announcement on this
Awakeninginchrist Yahoo global mailing list. All bookings will be first come,
first served until each of the 90 two week slots are booked. Particpants can
book for 1 or 2 or all 3 two week slots and thereby attend and participate in 2
weeks or 4 weeks or all 6 weeks of the devotional retreat. The payment can be
made via credit card or debit card through Paypal, and the payment is in euro
currency even though it will show up on your credit or debit card statement as
debited in the currency of the country and card that you use for payment. The
payment includes all food and lodging and airport pick-up and drop-off, and
teaching for the duration of your stay. A donation to the Foundation for the
Awakening Mind and the Messengers of Peace will come from the proceeds of the
retreat, as will our expenses for travel to and from the event.
Last year Jenny coordinated the Mallorca 2009 retreat, and she has offered her
input for this year's Mallorca retreat. She will continue to offer support and
input based on her experiences with the 2009 retreat and the Guidance she
receives for the 2010 event.
This year Messengers of Peace currently has a team of Jason Warwick, Lisa Fair,
Helena, Jenny, and Jason Press joining me for the retreat. Jason Warwick plans
to visit Mallorca and meet with Lynne and Claire on Sept.16th and for a couple
days thereafter, a month before the event begins. Christian will meet with
Lynne and Claire in the Spring to continue with the planning details for the
event. Helena will visit with Claire in Mallorca in mid-August.
On behalf of the Mallorca 2010 organizing team and the Messengers of Peace, I
invite you to join us for an event that will be a life changing opportunity to
experience an opening of the heart and a more consistently peaceful perception
of the world. This is another leap in the Great Awakening for everyone and
everything, and I am honored to be coming back to Europe for the experience.
In Love & Gratitude,
David
Blessings of Joy. Last year's 4 week devotional retreat in Mallorca, Spain was
so inspiring and transformational, that we have decided to hold a 6 week
devotional retreat this Fall (mid-October through November) once again on the
island of Mallorca, Spain.
Christian Christensen jcc_australia@hotmail.com is on the Mallorca 2010 team
along with Lynne Sears lynnesears@hotmail.com and Claire Waling
cwaling@gmail.com and this year they are organizing the event in collaboration
with the Foundation for the Awakening Mind.
Christian sent me the following information:
"We are delighted to invite you to join us for the 2010 "A Course In Miracles"
event of the year. After the amazing 2009 event the Holy Spirit has provide us
with an other opportunity to go deeper and more intensely inward then ever
before. Over 30 people from all over the world participated in last year's
event, and words cannot describe the peace and joy that we all experienced over
the 4 weeks that the retreat lasted in 2009. The feedback from nearly all
participants was that 30 days was too short and therefore the 2010 event will
give you the opportunity to stay for up to 6 weeks in a nurturing and loving
environment. The event will be based on the teachings of David Hoffmeister and
"A Course in Miracles" and in the live environment the depth of the teachings
can be experienced to it's maximal potential.
We feel that this event will be booked full fairly quickly, so to give everybody
the same possibilities booking can only be done on one website link, which
Christian and his webmaster Shaun have set up, and very soon this link will be
posted by our webmaster on the Foundation for the Awakening Mind's Mallorca 2010
website at:
http://global-miracles.net/mallorca/index.htm
This initial launch of the event includes a Mallorca 2010 devotional retreat
announcement website on Awakening Mind website (linked to from the Coming Events
page on the main website), a mailing announcement to our Living Miracles mailing
list, a mailing announcement by Christian to those who have contacted him and
given him their email address, and a mailing announcement on this
Awakeninginchrist Yahoo global mailing list. All bookings will be first come,
first served until each of the 90 two week slots are booked. Particpants can
book for 1 or 2 or all 3 two week slots and thereby attend and participate in 2
weeks or 4 weeks or all 6 weeks of the devotional retreat. The payment can be
made via credit card or debit card through Paypal, and the payment is in euro
currency even though it will show up on your credit or debit card statement as
debited in the currency of the country and card that you use for payment. The
payment includes all food and lodging and airport pick-up and drop-off, and
teaching for the duration of your stay. A donation to the Foundation for the
Awakening Mind and the Messengers of Peace will come from the proceeds of the
retreat, as will our expenses for travel to and from the event.
Last year Jenny coordinated the Mallorca 2009 retreat, and she has offered her
input for this year's Mallorca retreat. She will continue to offer support and
input based on her experiences with the 2009 retreat and the Guidance she
receives for the 2010 event.
This year Messengers of Peace currently has a team of Jason Warwick, Lisa Fair,
Helena, Jenny, and Jason Press joining me for the retreat. Jason Warwick plans
to visit Mallorca and meet with Lynne and Claire on Sept.16th and for a couple
days thereafter, a month before the event begins. Christian will meet with
Lynne and Claire in the Spring to continue with the planning details for the
event. Helena will visit with Claire in Mallorca in mid-August.
On behalf of the Mallorca 2010 organizing team and the Messengers of Peace, I
invite you to join us for an event that will be a life changing opportunity to
experience an opening of the heart and a more consistently peaceful perception
of the world. This is another leap in the Great Awakening for everyone and
everything, and I am honored to be coming back to Europe for the experience.
In Love & Gratitude,
David
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Healing the mind using the example of parenting
Hello David,
I am a relatively new student of A Course in Miracles, and am happy to share with you the Light and Love that has entered my life as a result. At this stage I am only half way through the Lessons, but am also an avid reader of related texts, such as Brent Haskell, Gary Renard and yourself!! My friends and I meet every fortnight to study the Text and share our love and thoughts. I have also been fortunate enough to share with Jason, Kirsten and Mel several times during their stay in NSW (where I live), and am looking forward to meeting them again with you and the other Messengers in March, at Frank Barker's retreat in the Kangaroo Valley.
I felt guided to write to you today however, with respect to a situation I have within my home that requires much Forgiveness, and all of a sudden, I am not coping. I have been unable to discuss it with Jason or Kirsten in truth, although I have had the opportunity, but I am just unable to go there in discussion, or even in my mind - I usually bring down the veil with a smile and brush it off.
My son was born at the end of my first marriage to a very aggressive and intimidating man which ended 12 years ago. I have 3 children, of whom my son, the youngest at 16 years of age, has Aspergers Syndrome (a form of autism). He also suffers from Epilepsy in the form of Absent Partial Seizures. When he has these seizures he speaks of very strong deja vu, and then of wild, extremely violent dreams during the short 'absent' periods (usually around 2 minutes) from his woken state. They are currently increasing in occurrence and seem to be uncontrolled by medication, and we are spending more and more time at the hospital having tests. He is also aggressive in nature and very argumentative, and this, together with him being 220lbs and 6 ft 2in at his age, makes him at times quite formidable.
I feel I have no answers David. I do my lessons and I endeavour to practice what is required, as much as I able, but he continues to deteriorate. Clearly I am struggling with the application of the Course in my life where it is most required? I feel I am strongly guided by the Holy Spirit, in as much as if I go against my inner voice with any decision, my life undoubtedly goes into turmoil! I am then called to look within to identify the cause, which inevitably allows me to recognise that it is just a dream and I am usually able to let it go. I then snuggle back into my Right mind and everything quickly returns to Love and Light. I try, and am mostly able to deal with most things in this way - which is truly beautiful - most things, of course, except those to do with James.
There is no peace except the peace of God, and I need to help him find it for himself. I am feeling that maybe through my story you can see where you may be helpful, to help me be truly helpful to him.
With love and blessings eternal,
Jo
____________________________________________________________________________________
Hi Jo,
Thanks for writing and sharing your thoughts and feelings and perceived circumstances. It will be a Joy to meet you in Kangaroo Valley in March.
When something seems to come to our awareness in this world, including a seemingly aggressive and argumentative child, it is just bringing to us an experience that we have asked for in a form that we believe is possible. So the belief system brings us things that which seems to satisfy our prayer or deep desire. Some might call this manifesting. But the most important thing is the prayer of the heart. The deeper you go into spirituality you see that you can only ask for an experience. And you see that the form never brings you the experience. The emotion is always coming from consciousness. As you get wiser and more mature your desire or asking changes; the request from a teenager or mother can seem different than one from a wise master. The teenager might pray for a car or a boyfriend or a girlfriend, the mother for some rest and stability, and the wise master might say; I want peace of mind. So our desire or asking changes as we go through life, until we fully see what the deepest prayer of our heart is; to know our true identity.
The one lesson that we need to learn on earth is the lesson of perfect equality independent of the size of bodies or learned roles. Really this one lesson is an experience of oneness. Parents have an authority problem because they believe that they created the children and therefore have authority over them. It seems like the parents are taking care of the child, but it is again an opportunity to see the perfect equality. That's really what mother-child bonding is about. It's not really a bonding between the bodies. Jesus teaches us that minds are joined and bodies do not. It is more like a telepathic bonding in which you just relax and feel the connectedness. It's an opportunity to relax and enjoy every moment. It's a feeling of connection, the mind is not judging the child, not thinking about the future or the past, not even thinking about a name, it is just in an experience of connection. To feel that connection is the goal of all our mind training by letting go of our judgments.
Everyone is a mirror of the thoughts in the consciousness. Therefore the child is a mirror to the parent and the parent is a mirror to the child. That's why I'm saying: be careful what you pray for, because you always get what you pray for. You can be sure that you are receiving what you are thinking. There are no exceptions to this. So when a parent says I'm having problems with my child, this could be reinterpreted as I'm having problems in my consciousness. You could even say: my child is reflecting my problems in my consciousness or my child is reflecting my issues.
We all have ideas about families, ideas that include memories of our own family past and how we were raised. Many of those memories are very unconscious. Sometimes parents say they want to raise their children differently from how they were raised by their parents, but they are shocked when hearing themselves say the very same words that their parents said to them. Since the past repeats over and over we have to break out of the patterns of the past.
We have to leave over the control to the Holy Spirit. Human beings cannot be partially in control, just like you cannot be partially pregnant. As you begin to see the value of turning things over to the Holy Spirit you can start to include people around you in that. With your son don't talk about anything related to spirituality that you have not experienced yourself. That would only teach speculation. If you do not have a very clear deep direct experience of God, why would you try to explain it to your children? It will only lead to more questions and you might look like a fraud or a phony since your answers would not be genuine. It is a profound thing to be in prayer, in the experience of guidance with what you say and do.
Children can be a great opportunity to practice intuition, because you cannot watch over the child constantly. You have to be intuitive and trusting. The priority is always to be at peace, and a means is to let go of the belief that you can control behavior. You can never control the world of form and the child¡¦s behavior is a part of that. So the parent has never a direct control over the behavior of the child. It is actually impossible. You can control the direction of your thinking, that¡¦s the one thing you have control over. In A Course in Miracles Jesus tells us there are two thought systems, one of love and one of fear. And you can reach the highest potential by practicing listening to the voice for love and using the thought system of love consistently. So in A Course in Miracles Jesus says: 'You may believe that you are responsible for what you do but not for what you think, but you are responsible for what you think and what you do comes from what you think.' So instead of trying to control the behavior, which is an effect, just come back to the mind or the consciousness which is the cause and make a change in your thinking. This does not seem to be easy, but it is definitely the way to peace of mind.
Sometimes you may think that you are personally responsible for the child, if the child gets angry or aggressive for example. But finally the idea of being personally responsible for anything has to go. No body can really be responsible for any body. Atonement or Correction in mind is ultimately the sole responsibility, and the only choice which brings lasting peace.
We can go into the self-concept and the need to release it completely at the Kangaroo Valley retreat. See you soon!
Forever in Love,
David
I am a relatively new student of A Course in Miracles, and am happy to share with you the Light and Love that has entered my life as a result. At this stage I am only half way through the Lessons, but am also an avid reader of related texts, such as Brent Haskell, Gary Renard and yourself!! My friends and I meet every fortnight to study the Text and share our love and thoughts. I have also been fortunate enough to share with Jason, Kirsten and Mel several times during their stay in NSW (where I live), and am looking forward to meeting them again with you and the other Messengers in March, at Frank Barker's retreat in the Kangaroo Valley.
I felt guided to write to you today however, with respect to a situation I have within my home that requires much Forgiveness, and all of a sudden, I am not coping. I have been unable to discuss it with Jason or Kirsten in truth, although I have had the opportunity, but I am just unable to go there in discussion, or even in my mind - I usually bring down the veil with a smile and brush it off.
My son was born at the end of my first marriage to a very aggressive and intimidating man which ended 12 years ago. I have 3 children, of whom my son, the youngest at 16 years of age, has Aspergers Syndrome (a form of autism). He also suffers from Epilepsy in the form of Absent Partial Seizures. When he has these seizures he speaks of very strong deja vu, and then of wild, extremely violent dreams during the short 'absent' periods (usually around 2 minutes) from his woken state. They are currently increasing in occurrence and seem to be uncontrolled by medication, and we are spending more and more time at the hospital having tests. He is also aggressive in nature and very argumentative, and this, together with him being 220lbs and 6 ft 2in at his age, makes him at times quite formidable.
I feel I have no answers David. I do my lessons and I endeavour to practice what is required, as much as I able, but he continues to deteriorate. Clearly I am struggling with the application of the Course in my life where it is most required? I feel I am strongly guided by the Holy Spirit, in as much as if I go against my inner voice with any decision, my life undoubtedly goes into turmoil! I am then called to look within to identify the cause, which inevitably allows me to recognise that it is just a dream and I am usually able to let it go. I then snuggle back into my Right mind and everything quickly returns to Love and Light. I try, and am mostly able to deal with most things in this way - which is truly beautiful - most things, of course, except those to do with James.
There is no peace except the peace of God, and I need to help him find it for himself. I am feeling that maybe through my story you can see where you may be helpful, to help me be truly helpful to him.
With love and blessings eternal,
Jo
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Hi Jo,
Thanks for writing and sharing your thoughts and feelings and perceived circumstances. It will be a Joy to meet you in Kangaroo Valley in March.
When something seems to come to our awareness in this world, including a seemingly aggressive and argumentative child, it is just bringing to us an experience that we have asked for in a form that we believe is possible. So the belief system brings us things that which seems to satisfy our prayer or deep desire. Some might call this manifesting. But the most important thing is the prayer of the heart. The deeper you go into spirituality you see that you can only ask for an experience. And you see that the form never brings you the experience. The emotion is always coming from consciousness. As you get wiser and more mature your desire or asking changes; the request from a teenager or mother can seem different than one from a wise master. The teenager might pray for a car or a boyfriend or a girlfriend, the mother for some rest and stability, and the wise master might say; I want peace of mind. So our desire or asking changes as we go through life, until we fully see what the deepest prayer of our heart is; to know our true identity.
The one lesson that we need to learn on earth is the lesson of perfect equality independent of the size of bodies or learned roles. Really this one lesson is an experience of oneness. Parents have an authority problem because they believe that they created the children and therefore have authority over them. It seems like the parents are taking care of the child, but it is again an opportunity to see the perfect equality. That's really what mother-child bonding is about. It's not really a bonding between the bodies. Jesus teaches us that minds are joined and bodies do not. It is more like a telepathic bonding in which you just relax and feel the connectedness. It's an opportunity to relax and enjoy every moment. It's a feeling of connection, the mind is not judging the child, not thinking about the future or the past, not even thinking about a name, it is just in an experience of connection. To feel that connection is the goal of all our mind training by letting go of our judgments.
Everyone is a mirror of the thoughts in the consciousness. Therefore the child is a mirror to the parent and the parent is a mirror to the child. That's why I'm saying: be careful what you pray for, because you always get what you pray for. You can be sure that you are receiving what you are thinking. There are no exceptions to this. So when a parent says I'm having problems with my child, this could be reinterpreted as I'm having problems in my consciousness. You could even say: my child is reflecting my problems in my consciousness or my child is reflecting my issues.
We all have ideas about families, ideas that include memories of our own family past and how we were raised. Many of those memories are very unconscious. Sometimes parents say they want to raise their children differently from how they were raised by their parents, but they are shocked when hearing themselves say the very same words that their parents said to them. Since the past repeats over and over we have to break out of the patterns of the past.
We have to leave over the control to the Holy Spirit. Human beings cannot be partially in control, just like you cannot be partially pregnant. As you begin to see the value of turning things over to the Holy Spirit you can start to include people around you in that. With your son don't talk about anything related to spirituality that you have not experienced yourself. That would only teach speculation. If you do not have a very clear deep direct experience of God, why would you try to explain it to your children? It will only lead to more questions and you might look like a fraud or a phony since your answers would not be genuine. It is a profound thing to be in prayer, in the experience of guidance with what you say and do.
Children can be a great opportunity to practice intuition, because you cannot watch over the child constantly. You have to be intuitive and trusting. The priority is always to be at peace, and a means is to let go of the belief that you can control behavior. You can never control the world of form and the child¡¦s behavior is a part of that. So the parent has never a direct control over the behavior of the child. It is actually impossible. You can control the direction of your thinking, that¡¦s the one thing you have control over. In A Course in Miracles Jesus tells us there are two thought systems, one of love and one of fear. And you can reach the highest potential by practicing listening to the voice for love and using the thought system of love consistently. So in A Course in Miracles Jesus says: 'You may believe that you are responsible for what you do but not for what you think, but you are responsible for what you think and what you do comes from what you think.' So instead of trying to control the behavior, which is an effect, just come back to the mind or the consciousness which is the cause and make a change in your thinking. This does not seem to be easy, but it is definitely the way to peace of mind.
Sometimes you may think that you are personally responsible for the child, if the child gets angry or aggressive for example. But finally the idea of being personally responsible for anything has to go. No body can really be responsible for any body. Atonement or Correction in mind is ultimately the sole responsibility, and the only choice which brings lasting peace.
We can go into the self-concept and the need to release it completely at the Kangaroo Valley retreat. See you soon!
Forever in Love,
David
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Forgiving the 'unhealed healer'
Hi David,
I want to ask you what do I do when I experience
the ego in my mind. The substance of the ego is
being seen in my mind as an energy of hatred and fear,
attack, pain vengance rage and condemnation. Its so
black and dark. I am afraid of it but im trying to
look at it with the spirit not keep turning away pushing
it into unawareness. Is this the first step? Just keep
looking at it being honest about what it is? At the
moment I am in the experience of the ego being unveiled
to me and its scarey and painful to see.. Can you give
me some help with what to do at this point?
Another issue is coming up for me now around being
at the Endevour Academy for 5 yrs in Byron Bay from
'97 to 2002 under the teaching style of Charles Anderson
or "Dear One" as he was known. The atmospher was very
confrontational, I'm sure you have heard stuff about it.
And I am not writing this to gossip or blame about the
place, i'm just wanting healing for what I think I experienced.
The teachers were confronting alot and humiliating exposing
people in the purpose to expose the ego. It was an environment
of pointing out ego in each other in a very confrontational
aggressive way. There were many cult like attitudes like
always staying in the group and people who left were looked
on badly and were excomunicated. Although I also experienced
alot of Love and Spirit there I was also in constant fear of
being attacked or confronted about the ego so there was
not an environment where it felt safe to expose ego because
you would get blasted for it, confronted, and belittled for it.
Therefore my ego thinking was held in even more and covered over
with Yes I am as God created me even though I felt anything but
that! Things were said alot about us being the denial of God
and being talked to like being told off and repremanded for it.
So I went into alot of guilt and fear about that and feel I didn't
get the true message of the Course untill I stated listening to
your teachings about 3 yrs ago. I have heard you say never confront
anyone. Unless he asks for your help specificlly Then you can
gently point out stuff. Well this is the opposite of what we went
through at the Endevour academey! I still feel effected by this as
this was my first teaching of the course but I have healed a little
from listening to you. It still lingers in my mind a bit. Can you
help me a all with this particular situation.
Love & Thanks
____________________________________________________________________
Beloved One,
Thanks for sharing what is on your heart and for your
willingness to forgive. As you begin to allow the ego to surface
in awareness the process can seem and be interpreted by the ego
as "scarey and painful." As I have traveled the world people have
opened up to me and shared their experiences of what Jesus calls
'the unhealed healer.' These experiences clearly do not reflect
the soft and gentle healingof deep Peace and Clarity of Awakening.
The Holy Spirit never commands or demands, and confrontation and
pointing out errors in others are basic ego tactics that can only
be appropriately viewed with the Holy Spirit as Calls for Love.
Gentleness is a characteristic of an advanced teacher of God,
and those who confront and agressively attempt to label or put
down a brother or sister in the Name of Christ know not what they
do. Humility and meekness far transcend the arrogance and conflict
the ego attempts to reinforce.
The 'unhealed healer' construct extends to those who would attempt
to extend Wisdom under the Name of Jesus Christ and yet attempt
to control people or shame people or exclude people who do not
agree to follow an 'external authority' or 'leader.' The
obviousness of egoic attempts at power and control only points
to the necessity of exposing the ego entirely and looking past
the error to the Atonement with the Holy Spirit. Whenever I
visited brothers and sisters and was asked about confrontations
in the Name of Christ, I always reminded the questioner about
the teaching: "A good teacher never terrorizes his students."
If anyone seems to perceive a teacher who claims to know
something about God or Christ or forgiveness and yet persists
in confrontation and judgments and opinions and grandeosity,
the best advice is to step back in Quietness and align within
to the Gentle Answer of Innocence, which is our natural
Inheritance from God.
The Answer to memories of any seeming attack or abuse is to
allow the thoughts into awareness so that they may be given
over immediately to Jesus and the Holy Spirit. As the core ego
belief is exposed completely it will dawn in awareness that
attack of any kind is impossible. This recognition is the
recognition of the Atonement.
Forever and ever in Gentleness and Innocence,
David
I want to ask you what do I do when I experience
the ego in my mind. The substance of the ego is
being seen in my mind as an energy of hatred and fear,
attack, pain vengance rage and condemnation. Its so
black and dark. I am afraid of it but im trying to
look at it with the spirit not keep turning away pushing
it into unawareness. Is this the first step? Just keep
looking at it being honest about what it is? At the
moment I am in the experience of the ego being unveiled
to me and its scarey and painful to see.. Can you give
me some help with what to do at this point?
Another issue is coming up for me now around being
at the Endevour Academy for 5 yrs in Byron Bay from
'97 to 2002 under the teaching style of Charles Anderson
or "Dear One" as he was known. The atmospher was very
confrontational, I'm sure you have heard stuff about it.
And I am not writing this to gossip or blame about the
place, i'm just wanting healing for what I think I experienced.
The teachers were confronting alot and humiliating exposing
people in the purpose to expose the ego. It was an environment
of pointing out ego in each other in a very confrontational
aggressive way. There were many cult like attitudes like
always staying in the group and people who left were looked
on badly and were excomunicated. Although I also experienced
alot of Love and Spirit there I was also in constant fear of
being attacked or confronted about the ego so there was
not an environment where it felt safe to expose ego because
you would get blasted for it, confronted, and belittled for it.
Therefore my ego thinking was held in even more and covered over
with Yes I am as God created me even though I felt anything but
that! Things were said alot about us being the denial of God
and being talked to like being told off and repremanded for it.
So I went into alot of guilt and fear about that and feel I didn't
get the true message of the Course untill I stated listening to
your teachings about 3 yrs ago. I have heard you say never confront
anyone. Unless he asks for your help specificlly Then you can
gently point out stuff. Well this is the opposite of what we went
through at the Endevour academey! I still feel effected by this as
this was my first teaching of the course but I have healed a little
from listening to you. It still lingers in my mind a bit. Can you
help me a all with this particular situation.
Love & Thanks
____________________________________________________________________
Beloved One,
Thanks for sharing what is on your heart and for your
willingness to forgive. As you begin to allow the ego to surface
in awareness the process can seem and be interpreted by the ego
as "scarey and painful." As I have traveled the world people have
opened up to me and shared their experiences of what Jesus calls
'the unhealed healer.' These experiences clearly do not reflect
the soft and gentle healingof deep Peace and Clarity of Awakening.
The Holy Spirit never commands or demands, and confrontation and
pointing out errors in others are basic ego tactics that can only
be appropriately viewed with the Holy Spirit as Calls for Love.
Gentleness is a characteristic of an advanced teacher of God,
and those who confront and agressively attempt to label or put
down a brother or sister in the Name of Christ know not what they
do. Humility and meekness far transcend the arrogance and conflict
the ego attempts to reinforce.
The 'unhealed healer' construct extends to those who would attempt
to extend Wisdom under the Name of Jesus Christ and yet attempt
to control people or shame people or exclude people who do not
agree to follow an 'external authority' or 'leader.' The
obviousness of egoic attempts at power and control only points
to the necessity of exposing the ego entirely and looking past
the error to the Atonement with the Holy Spirit. Whenever I
visited brothers and sisters and was asked about confrontations
in the Name of Christ, I always reminded the questioner about
the teaching: "A good teacher never terrorizes his students."
If anyone seems to perceive a teacher who claims to know
something about God or Christ or forgiveness and yet persists
in confrontation and judgments and opinions and grandeosity,
the best advice is to step back in Quietness and align within
to the Gentle Answer of Innocence, which is our natural
Inheritance from God.
The Answer to memories of any seeming attack or abuse is to
allow the thoughts into awareness so that they may be given
over immediately to Jesus and the Holy Spirit. As the core ego
belief is exposed completely it will dawn in awareness that
attack of any kind is impossible. This recognition is the
recognition of the Atonement.
Forever and ever in Gentleness and Innocence,
David
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
ACIM Facebook messages
I RECEIVED YOUR INVITATION. YES, I HAVE HAS STUDIED THE COURSE 4 YEARS AGO, MORE LESS. AND I HAVE MANY MIRACLES. SORRY, BUT I DON´T SPEAK ENGLISH. BUT OUR FRIENDSHIP GOES SO FAR. AND THE LENGUAGE DON´T WILL STOP US. JEJEJE. SORRY FOR THE ENGLISH. TE ABRAZO EN EL AMOR DE DIOS,
Patricia
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dear david! i just wrote something, but in the writing i already got all the answers, so you dont need to read, what is down there :) just in case you feel like, i didnt delete it...its nice to talk to you...are you in germany sometimes? would be nice to meet :) love to you, thomas
(i am happy to have somebody to talk about the abraham-course issue. i can see what you mean about that abraham is introductory to the course. on the other hand, abraham also teaches merging with higher self/god, just with the difference, that he sees the earth-experience as valuable and not as a mistake, like jesus does. is there really no use in the seperation-experience? is it really a mistake? wouldnt it be better to focus everything on love and thereby having also an amazing time, even here on earth? yes, jesus says that to, but there is a lot of negative talking about the life on earth...i am a little confused about all that. i am very touched by the love in the jesus-teaching, but i am not in the mood of wanting to really wake up.
how do you handle, being here? i thought the two worlds do not meet, like jesus says, so how can you be answering me by mail and be in oneness at the same time? thats something i never understand, with all the teachers...or, do you have your times off, when you go to god? and then you come back here? i dont manage to do that somehow..not in a total way...anyway, love and oneness are real and the only true pleasure, here and anywhere.
regarding awakening and life on earth, abraham makes a lot of sense, since he says, that you cannot merge with god totally, as long as you are in the body. to awaken, is to die, in a way. and i guess i am not ready for that.)
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Hi Thomas,
Thanks for writing. Yes, both paths have similarities, though the Abraham material is more introductory and ACIM is a pathway to complete Enlightenment. The experience of desire being single returns the mind to Creation, or Divine Mind. This is a State of Desireless Being, and is the Ultimate of Self-realization. Yet in earth terms, not many are ready for this. So the Abraham material has a great part in the Plan of Awakening.
Love you,
David
____________________________________________________________________________________
i am to hear from u but i want to know more about this inner peace?
-Ibrahim (West Africa)
____________________________________________________________________________________
I hope to tell you it all if I make it to West Africa someday. It comes from forgiveness. I hve written lots on the Net:
http://awakening-mind.org and enjoy meeting friends all over the world. By giving this Inner Peace I keep it in awareness.
Love you,
David
Patricia
_____________________________________________________________________________________
dear david! i just wrote something, but in the writing i already got all the answers, so you dont need to read, what is down there :) just in case you feel like, i didnt delete it...its nice to talk to you...are you in germany sometimes? would be nice to meet :) love to you, thomas
(i am happy to have somebody to talk about the abraham-course issue. i can see what you mean about that abraham is introductory to the course. on the other hand, abraham also teaches merging with higher self/god, just with the difference, that he sees the earth-experience as valuable and not as a mistake, like jesus does. is there really no use in the seperation-experience? is it really a mistake? wouldnt it be better to focus everything on love and thereby having also an amazing time, even here on earth? yes, jesus says that to, but there is a lot of negative talking about the life on earth...i am a little confused about all that. i am very touched by the love in the jesus-teaching, but i am not in the mood of wanting to really wake up.
how do you handle, being here? i thought the two worlds do not meet, like jesus says, so how can you be answering me by mail and be in oneness at the same time? thats something i never understand, with all the teachers...or, do you have your times off, when you go to god? and then you come back here? i dont manage to do that somehow..not in a total way...anyway, love and oneness are real and the only true pleasure, here and anywhere.
regarding awakening and life on earth, abraham makes a lot of sense, since he says, that you cannot merge with god totally, as long as you are in the body. to awaken, is to die, in a way. and i guess i am not ready for that.)
____________________________________________________________________________________
Hi Thomas,
Thanks for writing. Yes, both paths have similarities, though the Abraham material is more introductory and ACIM is a pathway to complete Enlightenment. The experience of desire being single returns the mind to Creation, or Divine Mind. This is a State of Desireless Being, and is the Ultimate of Self-realization. Yet in earth terms, not many are ready for this. So the Abraham material has a great part in the Plan of Awakening.
Love you,
David
____________________________________________________________________________________
i am to hear from u but i want to know more about this inner peace?
-Ibrahim (West Africa)
____________________________________________________________________________________
I hope to tell you it all if I make it to West Africa someday. It comes from forgiveness. I hve written lots on the Net:
http://awakening-mind.org and enjoy meeting friends all over the world. By giving this Inner Peace I keep it in awareness.
Love you,
David
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